Sunday, October 4, 2009
Being Transparent... Staying Strong
Heyya! Being Transparent & strong at once is not an easy task for someone with doubts like me.
Easy as it is I am being to nice to almost everybody I noe and to almost anyone. Well, I had found out that being in the reject table or being the in thing is not an issue now. I will still survive. I noe, I blabber my heartfelt to my superior and a very close friend! Damnnn I cannot call anyone a friend anymore. Let me be friendless... Trust no one... You are not always correct nor you are always right!! It's you alone who can make and trust your own choices... Once, this time last week, I was laughing out loud with all these people... People I call work buddies. But I get trashed easily in a jiffy just by 1 tiny mistake and a strong influence of an individual torment and crash my whole world!
Talking about trusting.... Everyone does talked about her including me! When a person doesn't have the make-up kit or so, she came to me, to loan and still havent return to me.
I don't ask her of it but she consoled me last week saying that she's there for me...
I AM IN RAGE... GIDDYYY.... IN PAIN!!!
Easy as it is I am being to nice to almost everybody I noe and to almost anyone. Well, I had found out that being in the reject table or being the in thing is not an issue now. I will still survive. I noe, I blabber my heartfelt to my superior and a very close friend! Damnnn I cannot call anyone a friend anymore. Let me be friendless... Trust no one... You are not always correct nor you are always right!! It's you alone who can make and trust your own choices... Once, this time last week, I was laughing out loud with all these people... People I call work buddies. But I get trashed easily in a jiffy just by 1 tiny mistake and a strong influence of an individual torment and crash my whole world!
Talking about trusting.... Everyone does talked about her including me! When a person doesn't have the make-up kit or so, she came to me, to loan and still havent return to me.
I don't ask her of it but she consoled me last week saying that she's there for me...
I AM IN RAGE... GIDDYYY.... IN PAIN!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
1 litre No Namida
I was introduced to this drama by my 3rd sister, Noraishah Ibrahim a lil' too late. Nevertheless, always having to much obstruction to even finish an episode. Finally, after the whole week of telling myself, please watch this drama, I finally finished it. It was the most heart wrenching, boxes of tissues wasted kind of drama. I cried really hard and still thinking of it. It does really tell me or rings a bell that i must alway love and treasure what is around me while it last. And if it gone, take it one step at a time and remember the person.
As for my case, Bapak and Nenek, left me peacefully, asking me to learn the meaning, the true meaning of life.
Based on a diary of a patient, Kitou Aya with Spinocerebellar degeneration disease, all the hurdles she face to live her life until she died @ 25 in 1988. To be frank, she's is more courages than anyone of us!
What I had watched was from a drama series with added characters like Asou, her love interest, I must tell you I really look upon people who takes care of patients with diseases that can't be cured. I took me back to 20 days ago when I lost an aunt to cancer! Well.... It must have been hard for my cousins but live on, say Aya! Live on forever!
I would reckon you all to watch tiz drama if you are free....
Can somebody help me find the DVD! It's really hard to get and the story of Aya is really hard to forget.
"It’s ok to fall down.Anyway, we can still get up, isn’t that a good thing?While falling down look up the sky.The blue sky high up my head, seems so wide and limitlessCan you see it smiling at you?I am still alive"
Aya wrote that! It LOVELY!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
SEPHORA IN S'PORE
Been a Fan of SEPHORA'S goods and always religiously viewing the webbie! DFS has got one but this is even better! In the hearts of Ngee Ann City @ #B1. I am soo looking forward and so definitely going to shop there! Well at least with Sephora, I can find stuff that I can't find in Singapore like NARS, LORAC, Kat Von'D and much more!!!!
More variety, for more beauty products!!!!!!
I'm so going to save my money for the magics in the makeup!
HELLO SEPHORA!!!!
More variety, for more beauty products!!!!!!
I'm so going to save my money for the magics in the makeup!
HELLO SEPHORA!!!!
Monday, December 8, 2008
Well....Weekend Come Quickly
Well... Well! The long weekend is finally over. Had a hectic week and nevertheless a mixture of emotions going on. Like a rollercoaster.
Friday 05/12/08:
Attended Kenduri @ Fajar Road. My aunt, Fatimah Osman, passed away on the 1/12/2008 in a peace. She was beautiful even at the glance. I will never forget her and the joy and all the fun I had with her! May Allah blessed her and put her with all the Salihins and please forgive her! To whoever that she has survived with, be strong! I noe it's may not be easy, but life must go on! We have to pick up the pieces & be strong again......
Saturday 06/12/08:
I went to T3 with Harith! Just the two of us and met up with my beloved family there! Wati, Mak, Bibiks & all the lovely cousins..... We sat and chat and eat kueh-mueh! The kids run around and had too much fun!
Sunday 07/12/08: Started brisk walking from Bayshore to Parkway Parade! I sweat and burn!
Monday 08/12/08:
Hari Raya Haji was fun @ rumah Bak & rumah mak! Simply we had so much fun together!
I LOVE MY FAMILY!
LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE ZOO TRIP THIS WEEKEND!!!
Friday 05/12/08:
Attended Kenduri @ Fajar Road. My aunt, Fatimah Osman, passed away on the 1/12/2008 in a peace. She was beautiful even at the glance. I will never forget her and the joy and all the fun I had with her! May Allah blessed her and put her with all the Salihins and please forgive her! To whoever that she has survived with, be strong! I noe it's may not be easy, but life must go on! We have to pick up the pieces & be strong again......
Saturday 06/12/08:
I went to T3 with Harith! Just the two of us and met up with my beloved family there! Wati, Mak, Bibiks & all the lovely cousins..... We sat and chat and eat kueh-mueh! The kids run around and had too much fun!
Sunday 07/12/08: Started brisk walking from Bayshore to Parkway Parade! I sweat and burn!
Monday 08/12/08:
Hari Raya Haji was fun @ rumah Bak & rumah mak! Simply we had so much fun together!
I LOVE MY FAMILY!
LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE ZOO TRIP THIS WEEKEND!!!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Lazy Bones or just FATSO!
Well... I got lazy. I got more lazier nowadays..... It's affecting me lah! I dun wanna be lazy but i truly must throw this negative aura that surrounding me. Truly.... I hate my lazy self and i wanna let go of this bad habit. Kenapa... Mengapa? Or am I tired? I think I am..... Housework, I can delay until a week. I'm never like tiz before. I follow my mood to do it and it's alway my lovable hubby helping me out in the end. With my weight and Harith's going up, I badly need direction and discipline to shed the fatso US!
Brought Harith to meet his paediatrician on Tuesday (14/10/2008). Well obviously Dr. Chua got shocked to see Harith rapid growth. It was last year that she last met Harith for an appointment and she's asking me, infact interrogating me and Iskandar for a valid reason. I mean what reason should i give. Just said Harith eat when he wants to eat and his amount is very reasonable and he's always happy and active. He's very active and can play around the whole day.
So she came out with the Genetic reason. Maybe it's genetic... Look at his father. Then she suggested for us to consult a dietitian.... ask for view. I agreed..... Mus Iskandar just comforted me telling me to take everything positive.
DOES THIS PHOTO OF HARITH LOOK FAT TO YOU?
We went to see this lady and she gave me this list of what every calories intake that Harith must abide and what to avoid. She really make alot of calculation for my Harith. I really pity Harith..... To much for a 2yrs 8mths boy to take. He's not a a picky eater. He hates chocolates and doesn't like sweet stuff. His weakest link: MR. POTATO HEAD! Be it mash or fried, he could devour it in any form. Maybe it's the POTATO or the Carb intake.
I'm so worried and I got 1 month to see the dietitian... PLS HELP ME CURB THIS STRESS!
AND I NEED TO REDUCE MY WEIGHT TOOOOOOOO! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Adrenaline GILA Weekend
Finally, we have came to the few final day of Ramadhan. The month full of blessed and we have had our share of hardship and fulfilment to our need. Ya Allah, please accept my loyal duty and doa to you. Only You can answer my prayers and my plee. May Allah bless me!
Since we are discussing the subject Adrenaline, might as weel we discuss the rush we are going through, cleaning, baking, hanging, sewing and wateva that is in conjunction to 1 Syawal so let start with the weekend with doing the final touches for Hari Raya Aidilfitri. It's next week, the 1st October 2008 also a very Happy Birthday to my friend, Yanti Payjan, which falls on the same day too. For me and Harith, we are well prepared to the event only I will miss my Father very much but life goes on without him as he's hear deep inside of me!
Another thing that excites me is the S'pore GP! I'm so looking forward for this event to happen especially in my home ground! I love the adrenaline rush and the noisy sound of the engines. It give you a thrill and chilling sensation down the spine. Even Harith is so into it. He got so engrossed when he watch the earlier races on TV so we bought for him a miniature Ferrari car for him to play with. Mommy and Daddy will bring you to the race next year OK!
LTA assigned my hubby and some of his friends (he's working for them) to do road closures and opening and he has been working for the past 4 night at the circuit. He shares his story with me.
First his Sahur at the circuit was a great. He packed food from home so no worries lah kan. Lately, like today, it raining heavily so it just make his work just a lil more tougher. But it is worth the working experience adding up to the moment when he saw Hamilton yesterday and gives him a thumbs up (encouragement from a support of TEAM Maclaren Mercedes). He likes Hamilton.... Not for me! I really fancy the awesome machines of the FERRARI. The day before, Massa was walking at the circuit with some other Brazilian. LUCKY Mus Iskandar.
Today is the testing event and tomorrow the qualifying round before making it to the final race day. Whoeva the daredevil who will dominate this circuit as a winner this very weekend, he's wicked! He rule the 1st eva night race and mark his name in history! I heard is 62 laps, 23 turns... Could it be the Scuderia Ferrari, Maclaren Mercedes or Torro Rosso.... Keep a look out on Vettel, that boy is really brushing up and determine or the other young blood like Kubica, Alonso... Well best of luck to the drivers. Well see the final score this Sunday!
Ready Get SET..... GO! GO! GO!
Since we are discussing the subject Adrenaline, might as weel we discuss the rush we are going through, cleaning, baking, hanging, sewing and wateva that is in conjunction to 1 Syawal so let start with the weekend with doing the final touches for Hari Raya Aidilfitri. It's next week, the 1st October 2008 also a very Happy Birthday to my friend, Yanti Payjan, which falls on the same day too. For me and Harith, we are well prepared to the event only I will miss my Father very much but life goes on without him as he's hear deep inside of me!
Another thing that excites me is the S'pore GP! I'm so looking forward for this event to happen especially in my home ground! I love the adrenaline rush and the noisy sound of the engines. It give you a thrill and chilling sensation down the spine. Even Harith is so into it. He got so engrossed when he watch the earlier races on TV so we bought for him a miniature Ferrari car for him to play with. Mommy and Daddy will bring you to the race next year OK!
LTA assigned my hubby and some of his friends (he's working for them) to do road closures and opening and he has been working for the past 4 night at the circuit. He shares his story with me.
First his Sahur at the circuit was a great. He packed food from home so no worries lah kan. Lately, like today, it raining heavily so it just make his work just a lil more tougher. But it is worth the working experience adding up to the moment when he saw Hamilton yesterday and gives him a thumbs up (encouragement from a support of TEAM Maclaren Mercedes). He likes Hamilton.... Not for me! I really fancy the awesome machines of the FERRARI. The day before, Massa was walking at the circuit with some other Brazilian. LUCKY Mus Iskandar.
Today is the testing event and tomorrow the qualifying round before making it to the final race day. Whoeva the daredevil who will dominate this circuit as a winner this very weekend, he's wicked! He rule the 1st eva night race and mark his name in history! I heard is 62 laps, 23 turns... Could it be the Scuderia Ferrari, Maclaren Mercedes or Torro Rosso.... Keep a look out on Vettel, that boy is really brushing up and determine or the other young blood like Kubica, Alonso... Well best of luck to the drivers. Well see the final score this Sunday!
Ready Get SET..... GO! GO! GO!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Somewhere In the Middle of Ramadhan
Alhamdulillah.... Telah sampai kita ke hari yang ke 15 dlm bulan Ramadhan.
Maka nye, kita sudah serasi dengan keadaan berpuasa, menjaga adab dan tatasusila untuk menghormati bulan mulia ini. Sesungguhnya kita harus menghormati bulan ini untuk menjana masyarakat Islam yang cemerlang.
Bulan penuh berkat ini, di hiasi dengan bacaan Al-Quran, penuh kesyaduan bisa membuat seseorang itu lemah, kecil, menangis sayu akur dengan kenyataan betapa kerdilnya kita di dunia ini. Allah senantiasa memberikan kita peluang untuk kita memperbaiki kehidupan kita. Dugaan demi dugaan yang diturun kan kepada kita, adalah sebuah ujian, membentuk keperibadian iman kita. Allah Maha Penyayang dan Maha Mengetahui segala apa yang akan berlaku. Kita harus giat usaha agar puasa kita nie diterima. Tampal balik lubang yang ronggak.... This is the best time to replenish back kan!
Tadi, aku di soal teman ku yang berbangsa asing.
" Su... Why are there still able bodied youngster not fasting like you all did. I saw them happily smoking, eat in public! Like no respect lah towards those people who fast! Not fair, you know. You all trying so hard, these people never give the rest a bad name..."
Aku terkedu..... Banyak kebenaran. Dah tak boleh sembunyi lagik.
" That is the awful truthlah dear. They knew but still do.... Try talking to them. They will surely SNAP at you."
Well, aku tak boleh nafikan that this is the awful truth, visible in the eye. Kita ada sibuk memelihara puasa yang datang nya setahun sekali, org lain buat kita rasa serba salah. Ada yang makan depan muka aku lagik. Yang dekat Haig Road lain, kedai kopi cina lain. Rasa malu tu macam dah tak wujud lagik. Mentang-mentang lah kita tinggal kat S'pura ni tak macam Malaysia. Bebas buat apa. Takde badan pencegah maksiat... Takde spy untuk tangkap kita kerana kita tak berpuasa dan dengan bangganya makan depan public. Sendiri mau ingat lah dey..... Org dan masyarakat lain melihat,... Allah S.W.T lagi tahu.... Sebab tu aku pakai this term 'SENDIRI MAU INGAT. HIDUP INI SEMENTARA'. Ya Allah pelihara puasa ku ini dan terima lah amalan ku. Amin!
So skarang dah mulalah keluarga2 yang sibuk membuat persiapan lebaran. Yelah cat rumah, tukar langsir, tukar Feng Shui..... Buat kuih.... my favourite part.... semerbak lah bau dapur rumah kita, rumah jiran2 kita.
As for me, Mommy will be doing it for me and some aku beli lah dari RAJA KUIH..... Kemas rumah di lakukan part by part. Lagikpun minggu depan, Hubby dah sibuk dengan persiapan F1 di Singapura. Kena keje lembur so orite lah.... Tido rumah mak, at least leh tlg sepit kuih makmur....
So everyone, Mari kita terus kan berjuang kerana Ramdhan belum berakhir, Nuzul Al-Quran akan tiba tak lama lagi juga 10 mlm terakhir bulan ramadhan yang diberkati dengan satu malam iaitu Malam Laila'tul Qadar. Moga-moga kita bertemu dengan malam itu sambil kita menguatkan amalan kita kepada Allah Ta'ala. Insya'allah..... Ya' allah, berkatilah semua umat Islam di bulan yang paling mulia ini. Amin!
Maka nye, kita sudah serasi dengan keadaan berpuasa, menjaga adab dan tatasusila untuk menghormati bulan mulia ini. Sesungguhnya kita harus menghormati bulan ini untuk menjana masyarakat Islam yang cemerlang.
Bulan penuh berkat ini, di hiasi dengan bacaan Al-Quran, penuh kesyaduan bisa membuat seseorang itu lemah, kecil, menangis sayu akur dengan kenyataan betapa kerdilnya kita di dunia ini. Allah senantiasa memberikan kita peluang untuk kita memperbaiki kehidupan kita. Dugaan demi dugaan yang diturun kan kepada kita, adalah sebuah ujian, membentuk keperibadian iman kita. Allah Maha Penyayang dan Maha Mengetahui segala apa yang akan berlaku. Kita harus giat usaha agar puasa kita nie diterima. Tampal balik lubang yang ronggak.... This is the best time to replenish back kan!
Tadi, aku di soal teman ku yang berbangsa asing.
" Su... Why are there still able bodied youngster not fasting like you all did. I saw them happily smoking, eat in public! Like no respect lah towards those people who fast! Not fair, you know. You all trying so hard, these people never give the rest a bad name..."
Aku terkedu..... Banyak kebenaran. Dah tak boleh sembunyi lagik.
" That is the awful truthlah dear. They knew but still do.... Try talking to them. They will surely SNAP at you."
Well, aku tak boleh nafikan that this is the awful truth, visible in the eye. Kita ada sibuk memelihara puasa yang datang nya setahun sekali, org lain buat kita rasa serba salah. Ada yang makan depan muka aku lagik. Yang dekat Haig Road lain, kedai kopi cina lain. Rasa malu tu macam dah tak wujud lagik. Mentang-mentang lah kita tinggal kat S'pura ni tak macam Malaysia. Bebas buat apa. Takde badan pencegah maksiat... Takde spy untuk tangkap kita kerana kita tak berpuasa dan dengan bangganya makan depan public. Sendiri mau ingat lah dey..... Org dan masyarakat lain melihat,... Allah S.W.T lagi tahu.... Sebab tu aku pakai this term 'SENDIRI MAU INGAT. HIDUP INI SEMENTARA'. Ya Allah pelihara puasa ku ini dan terima lah amalan ku. Amin!
So skarang dah mulalah keluarga2 yang sibuk membuat persiapan lebaran. Yelah cat rumah, tukar langsir, tukar Feng Shui..... Buat kuih.... my favourite part.... semerbak lah bau dapur rumah kita, rumah jiran2 kita.
As for me, Mommy will be doing it for me and some aku beli lah dari RAJA KUIH..... Kemas rumah di lakukan part by part. Lagikpun minggu depan, Hubby dah sibuk dengan persiapan F1 di Singapura. Kena keje lembur so orite lah.... Tido rumah mak, at least leh tlg sepit kuih makmur....
So everyone, Mari kita terus kan berjuang kerana Ramdhan belum berakhir, Nuzul Al-Quran akan tiba tak lama lagi juga 10 mlm terakhir bulan ramadhan yang diberkati dengan satu malam iaitu Malam Laila'tul Qadar. Moga-moga kita bertemu dengan malam itu sambil kita menguatkan amalan kita kepada Allah Ta'ala. Insya'allah..... Ya' allah, berkatilah semua umat Islam di bulan yang paling mulia ini. Amin!